IDRYO
Literary Magazine
Bayard Rustin High School
2021-2022
POETRY
"Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words"
~ Robert Frost
HEROES (for fred and i)
Kaiden Carlson
A hero.
But who truly is a hero?
Is a hero a zodiac like Leo?
Or is it someone made of steel?
Or a tower of answers that cannot be revealed?
Until peak climax--
It just seems surreal.
I sit across from my two
The two that spawn that word
We are in a quiet limbo
Of a white and pure church steeple
As I ponder a question
“What truly is a hero?”
Am I, myself, a hero?
I don’t really think so.
My grandfather however
Has earned that title so
He has kind eyes
A sharp but fading mind
That makes me feel so happy
And at home- it’s kinda fly.
He taught me how to gamble
He inspired me to draw
Now I only scrawl
for all projects soon to fall.
HOPE
Jace Salera
If hope is the light at the end of the tunnel
What happens when your tunnel caves in
What happens when the bridges you built, the farms you’ve grown
The homes you’ve kept, the culture you’ve breathed, the village you’ve raised fade away
Burn to the ground, disappear never found
Get shot through the heart, been doomed from the start,
Turn to dust, but try you must
To find the hope
If when you say goodbye you expect never to see a new day rise
as the bullets fly, and the bodies lie on the ground on which you pound
and scream at the top of your lungs “I’ll fight!”
Standing as one we vow to bar none
because now more than ever we unite here together
Through trials and tribulations we confirm the belief
that a new day will come
A day without soldiers reaping the masses
A day without spreading your loved ones ashes
A time without war a moment without gore
One more second with the people you love
THE BACK TALKER
Gayatri Venkatesan
Fed forkfuls of tragedy,
Numb to both applause and jeers,
Flaunting an absent-minded internal monologue
While basking in a dreamless sleep disguised as development hell.
Whose mind is a makeshift heart,
Plagued by delightful eccentricities,
Unanticipated laughter and eloquent ramblings,
Threatening to fall asleep while chilling blood in the driver's seat.
A thankless, thoughtless taker
Whose diagnosis is undefeated monotony,
The buzzkill extraordinaire of a screwball comedy,
Intrepid in the pursuit of lies, arrogance, and counterfeit vulnerability.
Lying just to start conversations,
Bound to respect everyone by respecting all poets
Since love and loss have shared custody of their sanity,
Making it rich by scooping out every last coin in the water fountain.
The rise and rise of remorse,
Damning brazen emotions while
Throwing euphemism after euphemism at the world,
Daring to overestimate another's self worth time and time again.
Cherishing icy glares and
Flaunting a lack of inhibition as though
It were skin made of classroom construction paper
While penning a grievous ode to the nonconformists of myth.
After all, apologies are forged in the
Smithy of false reassurance and halved hearts
For those who mindlessly expect a casual response when
Asking strangers if they'd rather die this very instant or live forever.
Fulfillment doesn't last forever,
Determined to evolve into the unattainable
Or an unrehearsed trip to an early grave engraved by
Black humor intertwined within joie de vivre and hypocrisy's debate.
Who fears being typecast as
An emotionless stump of potential or
The one who curses with words that cannot be spells.
And is caught in an ever luminescent back and forth with the universe.
The welder of gullibility and dirty realism
Destined to set the blueprint for spiritlessness,
Clarifying the passions behind every grin and grimace
Because delusion and illusion never were and never will be one and the same.
I WON'T MIND
Kaiden Carlson
This isn’t what I want.
It’s not what I need.
Dancing in my room is a sin I suffer to be
And somehow when I think of it I want to dance with you.
I can’t express it to you, you hide your heart and I respect it but dear
My feelings on you are made complexities like Picasso shattered
pieces and I hope my heart can’t replicate that
I hope it doesn’t, but I’ll let it be if it’s you
It started as a glance or two and now we talk quite often
And I refuse to think it’s love because that would be a shame
But loving like this is a slow burning complex
Like thick wood that can’t be burnt
But can you burn through me?
Maybe you have, maybe you are aware
But that smile and way you stare makes me think you’re as oblivious
as I am to my feelings and maybe being acquaintances is all we will
have with each other
But I won’t mind, only if it’s for you.
FALLING
Amber Duncan
Falling like leaves on a tree
Autumn colors surround me
Leaving my past to join the preset
Learning to live with incandescent
Imagery of liveliness from grounds of death
Naught of what died but what gives breath
Going, falling renewed in a new beginning
music
Jake DeMarco
There’s many types
Rap, country, hip-hop
Classical, metal, rock
Someone takes some words
They make a beat
Put ‘em together, it’s a song
But it’s not that simple-
Music isn’t just words, it’s not just a beat
It’s a form of art, I suppose
With melodical prose
That’ll get you up off your feet
And out of your seat
But it’s not just a rat-a-tat-tat
It’s deeper than that
We gotta give it respect
It’s a way to connect
So no, it ain’t just some lame rhyme
It’s a culture, a creation
Of a beautiful nation
In which belonging, you will find.
The pictures I’ve brought up have established something with me
The places I slot into in the minds of peers I know
Or love
Grant me some kind of a realistic dream I feel I must live up to.
While being a congratulating king of congruence to these images
I find myself more lonely than I’d like
I hate being social
I can’t do it normally
No one reaches out so I swim on my own
And while being alone is nice, I have too much time with that
In drafting to craft a staff of realism
A poem designed to entice people’s eyes
I blind and bind myself to my lacking abilities
Because although I can’t speak I can rhyme
And while I can’t rhyme I do really try
Try to configure a sign to realize it’s not time
Go to the bathroom
And clean off the clown mask
You made for yourself because you are lonely
Why are we all so lonely?
POETRY MADE LONELY
Kaiden Carlson
Why do I feel so lonely?
I search for relatability but it’s locked with keys unseen
Buried beneath a labyrinth of WIPs and secrets kept deep
Behind the curtains of feigned originality it suffocates
Me, we, everyone
In being given a creative writing assignment I have single handedly made it sad and self aware
Because if i see a creative writing case with guidelines
I think of an angel who is chained to the ground but forced to fly to heaven
Wings scream out
“Please”
But nobody can see,
That lone angel who was stripped of the warm freedom
Of this case
In this case
It’s poetry
Made lonely.
So I got a class announcement on Monday,
And of course I wanted to procrastinate
Not to elaborate, and certainly not to poem.
Pardon me though,
I find myself in class repeating in a toe loop low
Up down up down, raise your hand, class clown
Push up and past The bleak and gray and
Now I'm stuck in chemistry
To write chemical equations quizzically
While I hear no one caring behind me
I feel the student body grow tired and weary
But hallway crushes can’t even help you see
But anyways, onto the subject matter
Grow on past the plans I sit at desks and make poems
Some will be great comedies while others stoop in silence
Creeping sadness we can’t speak of
HOW TO MAKE A POEM
Kaiden Carlson
But wait, we can’t say that stuff with our peers
Refocus and align Kaiden find a new subject
A passion or craft can combine into a story I find fine
But other people crafting insecurities renders me fearful to tell them
And while civil rights talk is alright to write
I don’t wanna be barked at
And love is too cliche’ to conjure up into its purest poetic form
So what do I do?
A parody of a parody?
How about a poem of a poem?
Or the process of a poem coming into its own creation?
Nah, that’s a bad idea.
A TREE
Nadia Angelucci
A tree
old and wise,
That’s what they say.
The beautiful winds
brushing through leaves of legends
in synchromatic waves
perfectly in tune,
That’s what they say.
A tree
bruised and burned
They can’t see.
the raging fire
burning branches of tales
in chaotic rhythms
perfectly out of tune.
They can’t see.
A tree
observing,
always watching.
Watching the beautiful faces
turn to burning fires.
Watching the smiles frown,
and hope lost.
Always watching.
A tree
feeling,
always hoping.
Hoping for that single bright light
to change the burning world
from something they can’t see, to something they can.
SHIELD
Emily Bitner
I always held a shield
Between me and you.
Protecting you
From me
What hit the shield
Fell in a jar
Jars stacked
Filling my chest
Breaking me down
Breaking but still
Holding the shield
For you
But you promised,
Promised that you
were safe.
You would be safe.
I put my shield
An inch too low
Just because
You wanted to see
You promised the
Cracks weren’t
because of me
That it didn't hurt
I watched as
The cracks spread
Tears in my eyes
Trying to reach out
They took you away
Mixing these cracks
With self made ones
Trying to slow the pain
You had to survive.
I am so sorry
Because my love,
What were you to do?
The cracks were’t
Yours to bear.
This wasn't your
Pain to have.
Maybe you would
Be happy, be safe
If it weren't for the glimpse
That I allowed
FOG
Amber Duncan
It settles on everything,
It drowns sound with its eerie quietness
It’s eerie stillness
It's a void of nothing in every way
Its mist sprinkles the ground,
It scatters your thoughts
It focuses you like never before
What is this compound
I’ve never felt the extremity of fog
It settled low and blocked out everything I knew
It ate at me when I was defenseless
I was lost in it I felt like I drowned
FOR WANT OF A BREAK
Caroline Rendell
For want of a break, the momentum was lost
For want of momentum, the pencil was dropped
For want of the pencil, the words were forgotten
For want of the words, the essay was lost
For want of the essay, the project was failed
For want of the project, the grade was lost
For want of the grade, the semester was lost
For want of the semester, the year was lost
For want of the year, the drive was lost
For want of the drive, the diploma was lost
For want of the diploma, the opportunity was lost
For want of the opportunity, the job was lost
For want of the job, the money was lost
For want of the money, the marriage was lost
For want of the marriage, the children were lost
For want of the children, the joy was lost
For want of the joy, the friendships were lost
For want of the friendships, the will was lost
For want of the will, the life was lost
All for the want of a break.
WEEDS
Emily Bitner
I'm not a rose or daisy
They say i'm a weed
Who would let any flower
into my garden
They say I would show
My roots to anyone
And that one day a seed
left by nameless flower
Will grow a sprout
That will ruin my life
For a small taste
of another’s sweet pollen
I think I'm a fern
I have neither seeds
nor flowers
Not colorful
Or remarkable
Trying to heal others
Wilting away because
those I thought were roses
were poison ivy
Leaving red patches
That itch and hurt
Overgrowing in my garden
Leaving no trace I was ever there
How can I let someone
Into my garden
When I can't get the itches
Away
How can i let someone
Into my garden
When it is no longer
Controlled by me
How can I show my roots
to anyone
When I'm afraid
to look at them myself
Maybe this fern is a weed
Whos to say what a weed is
As far as I know
I fit the description
MY OLD FRIEND ADDICTION
Rylin Sage Bresset
Dear addiction, How have you been my old friend?
It’s been years since I’ve heard from you. Or maybe a couple of weeks.
I'm so delighted that every now and again you'll knock on my door and see if I want to go for a little…trip,
And because your so fascinating, and because you have me wrapped around your finger,
Of course I am going to say yes,
I mean what's the worst that could happen,
But little did I know that you would have other plans in store,
You bought me some gifts, which i do appreciate a lot,
But it happened to be just a little bit of pot.
We went to the old house, on the corner of destruction and doom,
Ya know the place we used to visit once a week or maybe two.
I see all my supporters standing there, including you.
They're all looking at you, with glazed over eyes, thinking you would never appear again
I guess they forgot this game you play where you attach us to a chain.
You have a way of popping up and taking charge,
Like a puppet show for you to enjoy.
Your power is undeniable, I'll give you that, but you have a way to always slap me in the back,
And pull me back down to where my old friend hangs,
A place I told myself and you, I would never go again.
You make my lungs feel heavy, and my head hang low,
My eyes get hazy, and I feel like I’m going crazy
I hope that I'm floating, but you have a scheme up your sleeve,
You start with the attacks, making everything go black,
And my mind starts spinning and rolling around till it is laying onto the ground
It's as if I've fallen into a lake and ya know almost drowned.
My dear old friend, how you have been with me through my hardest times,
And I know you will be with me throughout my lifetime,
You’ve taken everything from me and consume my thoughts,
You’ve honestly made me very distraught,
You’ve made me feel like I'm “water under the bridge”
You’ve made me feel like I should just jump off a ridge,
I get it,
I do,
I mean we’ve been friends for so long,
But I think you have this friendship all wrong.
It’s time I say goodbye again,
But don't worry,
I’ll be craving your presence in about a week's time,
We have a type of bond that anyone that has met you would understand.
I love the way you make me feel and I could never let that go,
For you have been the only friend that doesn’t make me psycho.
So for now my dear friend, I have to bid you goodbye,
But don't you worry,
It was quite the ride.
SUNSHINE STARS
Amber Duncan
The atmosphere is full of stars
They shine bright in the moonlit sky
And are hidden in daylight.
Outside when its sunny i think of them so high
Hidden by the sun, raw beauty in disguise
This ugly world blinded by the power
These little stars give
To the sun.
Sometimes I feel like sunshine stars
Holding all the power in my hands
But hiding under other peoples power being unable
To use my creations,
My dreams,
Make a good impact on the world
Make people see how much of an impact I can make
So I am the sunshine star-
I beautiful inside not on the out
I’m unseen
I’m powerful
I can make an impact.
AN ODE TO RUNNING
Jace Orsini
My way of life is to run
I pour my heart and soul into it
I take off running to the sound of the gun
I was once in a very dark pit
Till running showed me light
I am grateful for my discovery of running
If I hadn’t have found it
Then I would not have all the friends I have today
Thank you running
For getting me through all my hardships
I have one thing left to say
Just keep running
Remember me, remember you
(for patience and elisha stigora)
Amber Duncan
They are going
Leaving
And I am afraid
I'm scared to be lonely
What if I'm forgotten
Time whisked you away
Time torn you away from me
Curse time!
It goes too fast
When you're gone, what will I do?
Who will remember you
And who will remember me?
Nobody will care
Everyone will forget
Your life was too short
You were gone in a flash
Lost in the wind
And time won't stop
Time is looking, searching for me!
And I, I will soon be found
Then I will be gone too.
Then what?
What happens next?
Will we be forgotten?
History won't tell of us
Unless we do something greater
Greater, as in greater than everything
Anything, anyone else has done
But not everyone can be a saint,
a cynic, a perfectionist, a hero
Which is why some people live
And are remembered
While others die
And are forgotten
I can’t change how the world sees me
But I can try to show the world how good I am
Even then
Knowledge and wisdom of the world
Won't help people to see me
As who I am
And who am I to question
The standards of this world
Does everyone get their fair share?
This life we are living is so unjust
Some live others die
But for what?
What good does this do?
So I ask again and again
Who will be remembered?
Me? You?
Will I be remembered for writing this poem?
About how time whisked you away?
About how this life is unjust?
About how some are remembered
And some aren't?
About life and death?
Probably not.
Because people do greater things than this
You can check when I’m dead
Because I would like to be remembered
I'm writing this in 2021
When I’m only 15
Sitting in an empty hallway
While seniors are flying away
My cousins are flying away
My friends are flying away
Nobody will be left
I will be lonely
And time isn’t my friend
And it's not yours
Because who will be remembered,
I will be remembered
And so will my friends.
OVILLEJOS
Should I keep going now?
I vow;
I can’t quite quit just yet,
Forget,
The pressure keeps on mounting,
Counting,
I’m near-drowning in work,
I just can’t promise this,
My time just goes amiss,
I vow; forget counting.
Sevan Sinton
I strive but hit a wall -
I fall.
I wallow in the burn
then learn
to wipe tears from my eyes,
to rise,
and seek the biggest prize:
the knowledge that I can
become my biggest fan.
I fall, then learn to rise.
Mrs. Turley
My head is full of rot.
Do not,
Worry away or fret.
Forget,
The days worth by moon,
So soon.
The human mind’s lampoon.
Hollowed out like a tree,
What is the long term fee?
Do not forget so soon.
Sarah Dutton
Rain falls quickly as clouds cry.
The sky.
Lightning flash like jagged scars,
And stars
Shine above it all so bright,
Alight
As fire against the night.
Fiery hope and flame collide
Behind the fluffy clouds worldwide,
The sky and stars alight.
Bridget Casey
I fall for them so fast.
The last
Time was just to cry.
Thing I
Fell for I really want now,
Need now.
Loving is easy, start
To heal a broken heart.
Mend just to fall apart.
The last thing I need now
Preston Hoyle
I stand in the morning:
Soaring
Bees land on pale flowers,
Birds scour,
The weeping willow tree
‘Fore me,
All at home by the sea.
I read my worn out book,
Flipping the page I look.
Soaring birds scour ‘fore me.
Savannah Butler
Fireflies trapped in jars
The stars
The loud planes interrupt
Light up
Such a breathtaking sight
The night
Come watch the stars tonight
Soft chatter fills the air
They all look up to stare
The stars light up the night.
Sara Kouibaa
HAIKUS
The beautiful sky
Welcomes the bright golden sun
Like a baking loaf
Sara Kouibaa
Autumn is coming
Pumpkins, apples, and scarecrows
Crisp weather is here
Zoey Zimmerman
Leaves crunch, under trees
Foot step, tripped on a lump
“Ow!” What could it be?
Annaliese Schreiber
After a rainstorm,
The pavement full of brown curves
A worm rendezvous
Sarah Dutton
Fish dive into waves
Near my house by the seaside
Calming lapping waves
Savannah Butler
Senryus
At the climax of
battle, the soldiers stop and
stare for a moment
Sevan Sinton
She smiles fondly
Watching him pace around the room
Waiting for the truth
Sara Kouibaa
At the peak of our
childhood, we are happy
But then we grow up
Zoey Zimmerman
Idiocracy.
Children running, blind to the
problems they will face.
Savannah Butler
TANKAS
He kept on running,
from who, what, where, when, or why?
Past the old, wood barn,
and up on the gravel path,
broken memories of his.
Sevan Sinton
The super cute boy
With the devious smile
Taught me that love is
The foundation of your life
Euphoric and intimate
Zoey Zimmerman
Grid of slinking cars.
Numb pedestrians hustle.
The city below
moving, alive and breathless,
unaware of the moonlight.
Mrs. Turley
SHadormas
Rain ruins
plans we made last night
while talking
and dreaming
of moving out and living
in our own place soon.
Instead we
sit inside thinking,
arguing,
realizing
we might not be good roommates,
too stubborn to love.
Mrs. Turley
He likes to
Lie to his parents
Unable
To tell the
Truth of his false hearted tales
In a web of lies
Zoey Zimmerman
Stone towers
overlook the dry,
barren field,
tall grasses
swaying in the ruthless wind
of the approaching
thunderstorm.
The surrounding plants
overgrown,
with ivy
vines scaling up the cracking
cobblestone fortress.
Bridget Casey
Clouds roll by,
We train together.
Our blades touch
With a “clash”.
In the overgrown garden,
She laughs happily.
“I’m doing
Good, aren’t I?” she asks
With a smile.
Her cute smile.
“Of course, princess, you’re stunning.”
She blushes madly.
Savannah Butler
CINQUAINS
Road trip
with windows down,
wings spread like birds, no bounds,
driving through farm, desert, city,
searching
Looking
for a new place to settle down,
leave memories behind,
grow roots, find hope.
Fresh start.
Mrs. Turley
The queen.
She awaits me.
Would she die without me?
I must save her majesty, but
I won’t.
Savannah Butler
We walk
With hand in hand
Darting eyes, anxiety rise
Sweaty palms, squeeze one, squeeze two, I’m In love
Annaliese Schreiber
From two
Lovers lost between the lines from
One to one another.
No longer two
But one.
Preston Hoyle
THE SNOW QUEEN
Bridget Casey
The snow
swirls around in
spirals of sparkling dust.
Ice sprouts from her steps like eager
flowers.
She walks
along the bank
of the river, frozen
over from the recent blizzard.
She stares.
No sound
comes from her steps,
only frigid winds
that erupt from her long, white cape.
“Hello.”
She says,
her focus not
leaving the icy sand.
Her voice was soft, like snow falling
from clouds.
I stare,
not saying a
word. She turns to my spot
behind the old sycamore trees,
and leaves.
Her cloak
billows behind
her, like strong winter winds.
The snow swirled and her figure was
now gone.
VILLANELLES
I cannot see nor hear aught anymore.
I’m stumbling through the garden blindly.
I sense danger. I’m lost forevermore.
A small breeze sends a shiver to my core.
This, here, is how I die: resignedly.
I cannot see nor hear aught anymore.
I don’t hear her coming, her nor the four.
They lift me up, treating my wounds kindly.
I sense danger. I’m lost forevermore.
The world fades, but soon warmth is my sweet cure.
Wind rattles the paned glass violently,
I cannot see nor hear aught anymore.
I don’t hear her mutely open the door,
With my blind eyes I don’t see how she stares.
I sense danger but I’m lost forevermore.
She stands, watching in silence, my amour.
Oh, how, right now, I really hope she cares.
I cannot see nor hear anymore.
I sense danger. I’m lost forevermore.
Savannah Butler
Clock ticking, striking midnight,
Now it’s go time,
Landscape glowing from the moonlight,
Door opens, creaking slight,
Hearing bells chime,
Clock ticking, striking midnight,
He knows what he’s doing isn’t right,
As he scampers about, hoping he makes it on time,
Landscape glowing from the moonlight,
If he gets caught he’ll be in quite a plight,
But for now, he’s in his prime,
Clock ticking, striking midnight,
Clock ticking, striking midnight,
Landscape glowing from the moonlight.
Sevan Sinton
THE SEAMSTRESS
Bridget Casey
The sky was covered in one fluffy cloud,
the silver of her silk as bright as light,
the seamstress sewed before the engrossed crowd.
Of her work she was so very proud,
her works of rose gold, purple, blue, and white.
The sky was covered in one fluffy cloud,
and rain had started, thunder ringing loud.
Lightning struck, yet as the sky alight,
the seamstress sewed before the engrossed crowd
The storm went on, but people gathered ‘round,
the swirling winds raged with no end in sight,
The sky was covered in one fluffy cloud,
The sky was covered in one fluffy cloud,
the seamstress sewed before the engrossed crowd.
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